I've hit a brick wall in the middle of my path towards my destiny. And sadly, it is the same wall I'm sure we've all hit, my bricks are made of unpaid bills.

It seems as though all my stories have that certain point where I feel I have to go back and provide my listeners with a huge background, because they can't possibly appreciate how I feel unless I bore them to tears with my life story.

Since I am not in the mood right now to drudge up the past, and because I don't think anyone is reading anyways, I'll skip the background. Suffice it to say we were making good money (approximately $10-$15,000 net per month) and now we are down to $1000.

And without trying to convey too much of the bitterness I try to suppress daily, our business revolves around a $#*&@?! MLM.

You see, the company lost money in another venture and in order to recoup the losses, they rearranged things to create more income to pay off their large court fine. That was when I learned that all this time I had spent buying into myself and selling to others the " beauty of owning your own business, work your own hours, earn as much or as little as you want" line, I was really only making someone else very rich.

Residual income is a dream.

Let me tell you this, you don't ever get to stop working. You don't have to work as hard as you did in the beginning but don't ever think you've made it. I think people are starting to learn this and they are becoming disheartened by the realization. Have you noticed the increase in the advertisings of "winning mindset" programs? (And don't think I don't know that I need one of those CD sets more than most people.)

So what do I do? How do I turn my losing story into one of triumph? How do I walk up to the microphone and say," hello, a year ago I was massively in debt following someone else's dream. The money I had in the bank amounted to less than 10% of what I owed out, and I was too scared to use it to pay those bills because once it was gone, there was no more in sight. But now today, thanks to the miracle of Dr. Amazing's, Unbelievable It Could Happen to You Too Program, I now have all the free time I want and more money than I know what to do with."

Right now I'd settle for, "thank goodness we are finally out of debt. Let's never do that again." Yup. But you know what? I'm in another MLM. Love the product. It's what we know - we know how to get people to try things. And you know what else? They're changing their system as well. Only these people are whittling away at it bit by bit. 18% yesterday, 11% today. Doesn't that feel like a 'it's-just-a-matter-of-time-before' type scenario?

Well I'm glad no one is reading this because I've done it again - jeez.
Rambled on and on without getting to my point. Figures, now I'll try to make it but I've already lost my audience. Part of me feels that I should leave it alone and stop here, but I'll forge ahead anyways.

My purpose today, was to talk about transitions.

But how does a person make the transition of coming out of one type of lifestyle and going towards their dream lifestyle? What must they look for? How must they break the bonds of current commitments, be it a relationship, a job or maybe just everyday responsibilities and concerns. How do we finally step out and say, "I'm done. I'm no longer going to do this for anyone. I'm doing my own thing now."

I have subscribed to the best newsletter on the net. And I profit nothing for telling you this. (That in itself feels good, but again, I digress.) Without too much detail, I saw this guy at a seminar offered by the radio station I advertised with. Don't be fooled by the fact that Roy Williams is a genius in the advertising industry, I believe he is more a genious in the human nature industry. If you have a chance, explore the web site from the link I will provide you with. If it interests you as much as it does me, you might want to purchase one of his books. I have "Magical Worlds of the Wizard of Ads" and it applies to all things, not just selling or advertising. It will blow you away.

So early every monday morning, Roy personally writes the 'Monday Morning Memos' and the one that has inspired me recently is from December 22, 2003. He begins it with this question, "Do you remember the pivotal moment when your foot first felt the path you walk?"

(you can find it archived here) http://www.wizardacademy.com/showmemo.asp?id=135

He goes on to tell of how he was 'whining' (his word) about how something should be, and the person to whom he was complaining to (again, his words) challenged him to fix the problem, instead of taking the hint Roy was giving and doing it.

That first question though, has stayed in my head ever since I read that email. So as I keep asking it of myself, I realize that it feels more like that foot is not mine, but Fates foot rather, and it is kicking me in the butt to keep me from accepting life and following the same old, wrong road.

It feels like I am in the ditch that separates a four lane divided hiway,with speeding cars whizzing by me in both directions (a terrible metaphor of those who are on their paths and going somewhere). I'm in transition of choosing the road that leads to my destiny, and I'd love to take it now and travel it wholeheatedly, it's just that the doorway seems to be blocked by that brick wall made of unpaid bills.

And the irony is that while I try to use my old pathway to pay the bills, Fate just keeps booting me harder, keeping me from a smooth ride. Today I sat in that ditch, dropped my head, shrugged my shoulders and said "cest la vie."